That's what I came out to California with in 1975 at the age of 23, to plug into Community.
Where am I now at 59 the last two months of my 50s?

 Am I lost?

 Yes. Can't deny this unease. Do I really want to be in Oregon? Just for two weeks.. just for a month? Does it make sense?

 Have I failed at about all I wanted to do? I ask myself.

 Can I turn this doubt around. I have had great community here in Marin County since 1975, can I dig deeper.

 There are deep spiritual questions I face. they seem deep but all is in the moment. I think too much.