''A misdemeanor not a felony.'' she said.    I asked a woman I know, a friend who is respected by many in my community as a counselor pretty strongly in the 'New Age' vein I would say.  I asked her opinion of the 'A' word.    Abortion.. its a hard word to ever want to say.       In my last writing I brought up the dreaded 'A' word. The issue is perhaps comparable to the issue of slavery was to this country back in the 1800s. Extremely polarizing.... For as long as I have been writing my so called blog, sharing a piece of my mind for whatever that is worth. I had never broached this subject because I know I could or would probably find myself with very few supporters among my friends and acquaintances had they known where I stand. I have not exactly shown great courage in tackling this subject because it has certainly been on my mind. Like all difficult subjects it begs for  just a little wisdom and clarity and deep care with words and many times I have demonstrated that that is not my particular skill.    So finally here I am barging ahead... again.    'A misdemeanor not a felony' I must admit I was relieved to hear her acknowledge that it is at least a transgression against some law. A Law of Life I would say. A misdemeanor is putting it lightly but maybe in all fairness and justice to the souls of women who may endure deep internal suffering for this act (not all but certainly many) it is not for me or anyone else to be standing outside looking in wagging my finger at someone else's Life Crisis. It is not for me or anyone else to Judge another. It is not the governments role to make this act a crime.. It is part of a spiritual awakening that I think needs to occur on this planet. To codify this by law would be to enforce a spiritual value by law. For the state to pass laws designed to enhance a people's spirituality is very perilous and runs the immediate risk that so-called spiritual behavior is taking place in a society based on fear of punishment and retribution at the hand of man. There-in is the foundation of a society lost in a corruption of Spirituality. The souls of all men and women need to rise to a higher place not through Government control for that will never happen but through a genuine responsibility One to One. (Do you know what I mean? One to One.) Those who stand outside this individual decision process and have our own deeply held convictions of the sanctity of Life need to release the rest of the world from our Judgments and leave that to a higher power. If we have faith then it needs to be used.   If we genuinely have faith in the sanctity of Life and are willing to extend this to all Creation, then we need to acknowledge this divine web of existence. From the least to the greatest it is time to acknowledge and see how the gifts of Nature enrich mankind and how we stand in a position of power right now. A power wherein we can discard all Nature that we do not respect or understand until we ourselves, this materialistically great civilization collapses in disease and destruction or we can awaken a new attitude on the Earth of responsibility, respect and care for all. Not just human beings we do not stand alone all living beings are part of the great design. It is an Intelligent Design beyond our human comprehension.   This is where we stand at the Peak but already starting to crumble in our ignorance and disrespect for life.. and yet within the crumbling the new is there ready to take shape and rebuild and stand whole. A beautiful Planet where all Babies are welcome.   I had this wonderful cab driving experience last week.. I was having a near miserable night almost giving up on making money when a short ride to the local Airport shuttle service turned into a much more lucrative Airport run when this young woman had missed the last shuttle. I attempted to make some conversation with her and asked her about life in Marin County. She was so full of praise for the joys of living here that I hardly new how to begin to share my frustration and anger at the continued pace of development and destruction, wealth and traffic  yukk! .. my lovely County. At every negative thought she was in turn miss serenity 2006... You have to focus on the Positive you know she said if that is what you want. Yes I know Mr Angry one, me, grumpy me, always finding something else to be outraged about. God my brain gets tired. Is she nuts? Is she right? Am I nuts? The Positive I want positive that's why I am outraged at the Negative... does that make sense?    Your focus has to be strong she said. What do you want Heaven or Hell where is your focus?  Heaven..? then I remembered you know that fairly famous line.. 'On earth as it is in Heaven' some of you know that line from the Christian Bible they call that the Lord's Prayer. I thought of Focus and I thought what is being offered us Human Beings. We went over that prayer as we rounded the curve coming into SFO. Is it just there for us? Oh man she turned my head around plus she's good looking though she could probably never tolerate a grump like me, she was just far too positive (plus healthy and athletic and I am old and brittle) but as I was letting her out and yes I have her phone number.. as I was letting her out of the cab this dude was asking if he can hop in.   Well many of you cabdrivers know it is illegal for an out of town cabbie to pick up at the airport but it was at the international terminal and it was late and there were no SF cabs or airport security cars around and all he had was a backpack so I said goodbye miss Sunshine and hello to my new fare (I was breaking the law.. that's right always the outlaw).  So this dude gets in and we head back towards SF... hey I realize I am going to be earning more than $100 in about 2 hours work my night was being salvaged...Yeehah! plus I feel quite happy for other deeply positive reasons.. So this fellow this young man had just flown in from Tel Aviv was now in the back of the cab and Mr. Positive, me (right!) finds it necessary to bring up.. What the Heck is going on in Israel again? As bombs are going off and life just looks scary as all get out again. I was wondering how he was coping. He tells me Tel Aviv is a small city. He tells me that 3 hours before he got on the plane yesterday to the US he was sitting at the same cafe where the gruesome picture of the bomb blast was plastered over the front pages of the newspapers today. We he says speaking of he and I guess his young friends We pay no attention.  We go to the beach. We go drinking. We pay no attention. You must not pay attention to this and here his poor English may have helped create this phrase but actually he spoke fairly good English. 'You must Possess the Positive' Possess the Positive I asked? Yes he says. I am not sure a human can possess the positive I am thinking I am thinking of myself as if you could own it. Possess the positive that stuff comes and goes for me I would love to stay positive but I ...  Wow I dropped him off in some apartments in the Presidio a stones throw from the Golden Gate Bridge and my ride back to Marin... amazing alignment back to back combination of punches a one two, a knockout. Wow!!! boggled mind... I must stay positive I must stay positive.... (imagine Homer Simpson driving his cab).   Got back in time for one last ride from the San Rafael transit center it was good old Captain Rick (about my age) coming back from the 4th Street Tavern, a regular of ours before we could share talking about the miserable weather I told him about my Tel Aviv buddy and we ended the night on a note of hey how's our cup half full or half empty and you know if the empty part is just all the things you wish you had that you don't then that's just nothing but a big illusion. Are you bemoaning your missing illusions or are you noticing your substantial reality.. you dang fool your cup isn't even half full that's a very full cup right now. Anyways that was a good night did I answer all your questions?      Oh well.  Here is very positive tune by a heavy metal band that you might be surprised to find out you enjoy.  Yee old grouch bids thee good night.      Guy Meyer, Jr.                   April 27, 2006         San Anselmo, California               guy@lifesignsphoto.com