Thinkin' about the coming changes...

San Anselmo
June 24, 2005

Well it would be nice to not be tired.. very tired when I find I simply feel some urge to write as usual that is not the case. I just want to say that someday I will be able to sit down and write as if this was part of my job. That is the job that I am trying to design for myself connected to my music world too. I have hardly had time to even work on a strategy. How does one drift along in this civilization specifically this USA with all these beautiful ideals that are still so far from being lived in true honesty in our damned rat race world? I don't mean to be fixating upon the negative I could be writing about how this Planet is made up of so many millions and millions of really fine people (not perfect people) really outnumbering by an overwhelming magnitude the people who would harm others for whatever blind reasons. Millions and Millions and millions maybe that is a major part of our dilemma right there. That is not what I wanted to write about. The Supreme Court. I haven't in my mind thrown out this nation of ours with it's rather complicated but also rather fine attempt at Self-Government. I never have maybe some day it will come to that and in utter disgust I will say it is absolutely time for our survival to begin a fresh experiment in Self-Government. I have been angry and frustrated here and there. Maybe all the time. I have never thought about what I would replace this government with I have merely thought how we might re-awaken the people so that we might enter this system and give it some re-newed power and integrity and that those in Power were not being pawns unconsciously consciously of the systematic abuse of Power of a ruling Wealth Class a Corporate monstrosity whose benign veneer of care and protection selling to we citizens a world of cheaper faster and of course it's Herculean efforts/ always fighting always battling to cure us all those diseases of Life that will cost us a fortune but buy us a few more years a little less pain as we go on destroying ourselves and our Planet in our irresponsibility. What a mess what a fraud! I know I am apart of it. We can't afford to support an independent businessman because life is hard and WalMart, Costco, Target is cheap. As I said I am tired forgive me I still feel the urge to continue. The Supreme Court was it yesterday...?
Your house or home. World War 2, World War 1, VietNam, Iraq can we just say as a people as a Liberal as a Conservative as someone who gets so turned around by this world that you do not know what you are... that you resent the Holy ^$#^%$%^!! out of someone saying anything about Freedom when this type of outrageous sickening Lord help me there it is right in your face America at it's ugliest... yes kids this is Progress more progress. Read it yourself. Maybe I am wrong. These people some of them who have lived in their homes all their lives do not have the right to their homes. The greater good must be served. The greater good must be served and you must give up your homes. The greater good must be served you as an individual by giving up your rights will serve the greater good. Who are you to stand in the way of progress? Who are you what does it mean to be born in the land of the Free and the home of the Brave? It means virtually nothing. I watched PBS last night. You know its being taken over by conservatives corporate lackeys of The Bush Administration as they well might be. Let's not probe with our programming anything else that might offend the American Family let's sing God Bless America more often. I don't know much their continues to be an active push to control the debate the voice through the media of what is real and what is not. The ruling power be it Democrat or Republican do their best each as they struggle to hold and maintain power. This administration seems bolder than any in American history in it's sense of rising to the occasion on some noble cause of Freedom and God's will.. What is their vision where are they taking us as America is looted every factory yanked off its foundations and sent to China or Mangalore or anywhereseville but here somewhere where there are lot's of poor people willing to work like slaves because it's still improvement or seems such and we can't resist the glory of such cheap goods.. and the Rich get Richer and trickle down seems to work ... as long as you don't notice that your world is being destroyed as well as your independence. I watched PBS last night. Did anyone see that special about Fidel and Cuba? There was a time and it lasted a long time that I held Fidel in a bit of liberal Romantic... looked through the rose colored window. He drove out the slimey capitalists and I am a peasant and I rejoiced. You know what I mean? That definitely faded over the last twenty years but I can't deny that I would have said Viva La Revolucion! If I was President of some small nation anywhere in the world. I would urge my nation to be as independent as it can possibly be. I would say first what can we do ourselves. What can we build what can we grow do we have natural resources then let's control them. I want no foreign nation no matter how wealthy or supposedly benign controlling the economy of my nation. This might cause my nation to be kind of poor in some ways but I think with the proper ingenuity and encouragement my people would simply find a way to make a working economy and of course it all starts with the Earth and how do you harness or harvest the bounty of Nature in a way that does not destroy the natural Well of Life. I would be as tough as old Fidel hoping some how that the people could get the inspiration and would find away to make their world thrive. I know they would. I know they would.
Throw away those Rose colored glasses. A tyrant is a tyrant. For the good of the people you give up your individual rights and we join in the Revolution the Chinese Revolution the People's World Revolution, the whatever Revolution we surrender to the will of the charismatic leader and it always help your hold on power (ask the Republicans) that we have an enemy that is out there ready to destroy us. I have to leave this writing soon it is late I am tired. The individual is sacred on this Earth. If you do not respect the rights of the individual then you do not serve the Greater Good. Fidel is a fraud and has been for most of his life. He didn't trust his people. Power is hard to resist once you have the taste.. Remember Frodo on Mount Doom?
Some new place beckons. All you romantic neo liberals throw away your concepts of socialist for the greater Good... bogus realm always the enforcer will come along and the greater good that we gave it up for is a fanciful mirage that we might be herded to the greater good by accepting some lesser evil. Give it up you Neo-Cons this Corporate enslavement of America you are leading us too is just too bogus and self-evident keep that religious Crap out of my life. How dare you commit my tax money to a Faith Based organization? Obscenity. What about my faith? Render unto Caesar what is Caesars but keep my Holy Temple clean. Some new place. Liberals and Conservatives that's all just being human all intrinsic stuff leaning this way or that way. Just be careful about getting yourself locked into someone else's ideology. I am equally alienated.    I am so Left out Right on!