Hello friends,              I have never been a great communicator. Anyone who knows me at all can testify to that. Some grand capacity to retreat within my brain caught up in my self-perceived battle for spiritual strength and the need to sustain myself on a daily level. It's not a battle between those forces but a battle to attain some level of .. success or comfort or maybe a sense of being there,  or of an accomplishment of some modest level, within those realms. Which I still have not achieved. Some times it's overwhelming and I have the time for nothing. You may have observed I still spend a lot of time in the world of music enjoying the music of others and making more of my own lately.      I don't want to get too personal. Just wanted to let you know I am here and it is my wish to continue to share my thoughts of the world with you as I go along. There is so much to talk about on a daily level. So much is very obvious in this world so much so obviously completely wrong & destructive & ignorant about the path of Civilization and particularly my own country. Yet in this flood of humans and time, and limited time, it is for us all to try to come to some comfort level and maybe for some of us that is simply an illusion, and the best we will ever do is to step forward in Life as it is with our own mess. Going beyond worry and find a way to embrace the reality of being. A living being in the moments of our existence. Being. Why is that so hard? It ain't hard. It's reality. I'll try to tackle the living room before I get out the door to do a shift of cab driving on a cold December night in California.   I have begun a few entries in the past couple of months somehow often when I begin something It is hard too finish it satisfactorily. Not uncommon experience for me. Maybe I will retrieve these unfinished works.  2006 what I would like to see from me is less reporting of music from me, more conversation here.  More time, less stress, more time to say hello to family and you & less worry that all I have to say is ... Life is Hell... cause it ain't, it's much closer to the opposite. Just hard for this human to figure it all out.     Thank you for visiting my online world thank you for your patience.   Now we are going to get it going with this Peaceful Revolution experience. It's all in me and I know the way. Yes I'm crazy.  Now you say... It's all in me and I know the way. You don't have to add the Yes I'm crazy part. Just go out there and be your crazy self even if you don't know the way just make it up as you go along and wherever you are consider that your way.  That's right now we are making some progress. It's a start.                    Guy Meyer, Jr.                   December 12, 2005         San Anselmo, California               guy@lifesignsphoto.com